I'm going to snap....

I can't take all of this. I'm working long hours at work, I'm falling short on the needs of my family and I've got weekend obligations with Mom and Dad. I'm sitting here not wanting to be here. I'd rather be at home getting better. Seems like there is no end to this. Dad is just as belligerent as always. Mom is giving my nasty angry attitude. I don't need this. All I want is for Mom to be nice. Instead she treats me unlike anyone else. I guess she feels she has the right to do so. I want Dad to get into a nursing home. I can't take all the stress. At least I'll feel like the world is not dropping out when I see Mom's phone number show up on caller-ID.

Mom, I'm truly sorry that this is what God has dealt you. It's not what you wanted. You have tried your best. You have tried dealing with the differing sides of the families. It's clear that you can't manage anymore. I can't keep being here for you under these circumstances. You're pushing me away whether you realize it or not. I will not return at some point for my own sake. I can't care for both of you when my family is falling apart. It's been almost 2 years of this since Dad had his stroke. He's not going to get any better. He's going to be more demanding. He has no concept of his life. He doesn't remember to unbuckle his wheelchair seatbelt to get up. He's acting in a manner that is dangerous to himself. You can't manage him any longer.